Obviously, tonight my feeling fucked up! How? I can't stop thinking about him. Stupid boyfriend I ever had. But now I title him as my ex boyfriend. 4years 6months is not a short time. Did he feel the same just the way I feel? Oh God, please forgive me if only I being rude. But this is not fucking awesome. This is awful. I'm not going to waste my time think of him. The problem now is he keep on running in my mind. I can't take this anymore. Just now, I accidentaly saw his photo on his aunt's Instagram. Oh my God. I almost shed a tears. Honestly, I miss him. I know this sounds stupid. I think the qoute said, "forgive & forget" is not a good idea. It's not fair. No I'm not going to forget everything when there was me and him. It was too precious. I love him. I love him so much. Only God know and only He know the reason why this thing happened. Remember, I who dumbed him. It's almost 8months. I don't want to be enemy. I want us to befriend. Like other people. That's it. Hell yeah this is the shittest feeling ever. Okay, bye mi amor!
