I can't stand it anymore so I cry and cry and cry. Nobody knows. Yesterday he had a great time with his friend at Damai Beach. So, as usual lah kan? He left me behind and I have no-thing to do cause it's Saturday. Plus, I'm not in a good mood because of that stupid period pain. It's getting late but no text from him. I'm done with my dinner and shower. Then, he text me. Blablabla there's no interesting thing to talk to. He kept telling me he enjoyed himself. Okay, I understand it baby. After he done showered, then he went out again with his friends for 'Ngiling Bidai'. He said that he's tired but still want to go. I'm not in a good mood. You know what? I feel that we're getting apart. We don't spend much time together. Yea I know we're both far. He was too busy with his thing and finish done it when it's time to go to bed. What the --- So, contact each other through phone only. This is so unfair to me. I wait him for a long time and that's what I got? A simple conversation. Am I too 'Queen Control'? I don't know. Please, this is not fair. I understand him but, how about me then? Who's gonna take care of my feelings? Myself? Yea, it's seem to be like that. Cry out is the best way to overcome it. And after that fall asleep with a dried eyes. Last night I was doing it. Sleep late and this morning I had a 'pretty' eyes and you know what I mean. Eye-bag makes my face look much ugly than before. But, it's okay not to be okay. Okay then, I don't feel want to say more about this. Just let it be. God know what's right for me. This morning I really feel so much blessed. Thank you Lord for you had rescued me. :)
This evening I've made a loaf of bread and Nestum biscuit with mumy and my little sister. We had so much fun. :)
