my entry, erm..i just wanna tell that i miss my darling so much! :( ggrrrr! feel wanna scream out loud. WTH? im missing him so badly. Only God knows how i feel. ohmygawdddd! imissyouimissyouimissyou! imissyouJoshua! im tired of crying everynight. i know you wont know this. i wont let you know. cause i dont want you to worry about me. i know you care for me, but i wont let you know. i lie because i care for you. and for your own sake. all i know is i want you to be with me. forever♥ very the sentimental aite? yeaaa, but its not a joke dear. i mean it. i want to have a big family with you. i wanna have your babies. i trust you boy. i know you wont lie to me. i know you love me more than i do. kankankan? hoping that you read this, but i know. you wont read this. yeaaa, you're not that kinda busybody to spending your time with this thing. i know. we used to argue about this before. and thats the way we are. we always quarrel everytime. small or big, will be an issued. i love you so much! no matter how, what, where, who you are darling. everyday im fall in love with you, again and again and again. nothings gonna change my love for you. like for the very first time dear, remember? 10January2008. so meaningful. even im just 4teen. *too young to fall in love* never know that we will go thru this past 3years8months2days very gracefully. Thanks be to God. ohhh, tears run out. okay, conclusion i love my Joshua very much! i miss my Joshua so badly! i sayang my Joshua very much! Good Night peeps. [:
